Hey people.. I know I haven't been blogging in a while.. Been caught up with some stuffs.. so yeah.. hehe no time to type.. except while at work..

I had a tiring weekend at my aunt's wedding.. Aunty Mani finally got married.. and her hubby is the RTB dude who reads the sports news.. heheh KIYUT lakinya.. hehe macam kanak2..

so anyways, masa malam bebedak.. there were two games going on.. one was the Lotto.. it's like this Bingo game where the numbers are being called out and you have to cross out the ones that you have on your ticket.. and the other one was a Guitar Hero tournament..

Knowing that I suck horridly at Guitar hero I decided to play Lotto.. but I just couldn't take my eyes off the TV screen where my cousins were playing.. soon after I played like 3 tickets of Lotto and had no luck what so ever, I went to join my cousins and tried one game.. OMG I SUCK!! hahaha but was ok.. I had fun laughing about it.. hehehe

At my grannies d Anggerek, angah's sandal's were worn by my nene.. heheh so she was busy looking for my grannies sandals to were out.. when her 6 year old son asked what happened, all he could say was," nene mu atu..." heehheh cute ah.. macam orang tua sja anak ah..

to my dear fatin: yes, m fine.. m here. hehe sorry for being so quiet for the past few days.. hehe i miss you babe... =)

to my sexy eyes boyfriend: I love you in every way

for today's blog..

I've been spending my time at home resting for the past two days.. just to get my rest... tomorrow I have to start working again.. my darlings pipah and paten visited me this afternoon.. hehe had a girl talk.. lama sudah inda hang out with them.. my sayang came a few hours after.. nyaman his sleep.. heheh he's soo adorable..

waiting for the results from UBD is so nerve racking.. I really want this.. 

this was suppose to be my entry for sunday:

Im gonna be losing a whole lot people I love and care about in the fall.

Okay correction. Brunei doesn't have fall.. During the months of September and October to be exact..

My friends are gonna be leaving for Uni soon.. and Im gonna be very lonely..

I told my sayang not to tell me anything about his confirmation to go abroad this year..

Not until it's really confirmed.. Losing friends means I need to make new friends.. New friends means Im gonna have trust issues.. 

To syaz my last blog has nothing to do with you okay.. so don't hate me.

My last blog was just this feeling I had.. Insecurities.. You are my friend and I trust you okay.. so don't be mad at me.. 

I've been sick for the past 24 hours.. everything I consume seems to find its way to come back out.. where it came in.. 

My head spent most of it's time in a toilet bowl.. and my head has been spinning all day yesterday and it still is today.. Im too scared to eat anything.

I might throw up again..

To wafi and izzat: Happy Birthday Dude!!! =) have a great 20th 

Do you ever get the feeling of not fitting in.. Like when you're in a crowd of friends and you feel you're the misfit, the freak, the ugly duckling or that you're not smart enough to hang out with them... what's worse they show signs that you don't belong.. it sucks even more when they rub it in your face that you're not one of them... It reminds you that people do look down on you.. and you can't trust everyone..

In my case, people say I'm too naive and i tend to trust people easily..

You don't know whether friends you trust are talking about you behind your back.. Or the people you've known for a very long time, aren't what they truly are.. In the end the only people you can actually trust is your family.. those are the people you can come to for help.. the people you can rely on.. the ones who will always be there for you no matter the situation..

I told my mum that I'm too embarrassed to go to a certain occasion tonight because I know I'll be the odd one out.. the feeling of not an equal is going to arise and it's gonna make a hole of regret in my heart that I can't fix because I didn't do the best that I could to be where they are right now.. She told me that when this happens I'll realise that all I can do is to show them that I am capable, capable of doing better.. and mothers are always right.. Dreams don't come true because it's not written in your destiny.. we just haven't tried hard enough to make them come true..

So right now, before the feeling of regret comes.. I will work harder for these next few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, days and years of my life.. to achieve my goals.. to finally feel that I'm actually climbing the ladder of success.. and prove to myself that I am better.. I want to feel that I've succeeded.. I'm motivated and nothing can bring me down.. CHAYO CHAYO!

The Notebook: A romantic sad love story about two people from different backgrounds falling in love with each other. They faced many obstacles but in the end they married, had a beautiful family, grew old together and lived a wonderful life. They died in each others arms in the end.. 

Its a must see movie for a hopeless romantic.. I know it's a movie from 2004 but I have seen it several times it still makes me tear.. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic.. 

I miss my GG.. He makes my heart skip a beat.. and I love the way my tummy feels when he looks at me.. I miss the feeling.. I wish you're here love.. I miss you too much... I love you <33

I keep you with me in my heart 

Good morning Brunei *waves*, first things first.. my new url represents my Cupido Doo Doll.. he's a hopeless romantic, who spreads love around the world with a single beat of his big red heart..    

Since I slept late last night I decided 10AM was a good time to wake up.. hehe turns out it's boring to wake up late.. i have no plans for the day.. except to go yoga-ing this evening.. I haven't eaten breakfast yet because I have no one to eat with.. So now I'm just waiting to have lunch.. Mama went to the bank and decided to go out alone since I was asleep when she checked on me twice.. when she already woke me up the first time.. I feel kind of guilty letting her go out alone.. 

I want to watch Definitely , Maybe later this afternoon.. Aez bought the DVD a few days ago but I havn't had the time to watch.. I'll make time for that.. 

My lovable GG: 

I'm lucky I'm in love you.. You make it easier when things get harder.. I love you in every way..  

Untraceable: great movie to watch... keeps your nerves racking and makes your stomach twist and turn.. The suspense makes you sit at the edge of your seat.. 

This is the first time in a long time I've decided to sleep late.. So I feel like blogging

I had dinner with Nana, Wafi and Fitri at Lemon Grass.. The food was good.. Wafi had the urge to tease the she male waiter or should I say waitress.. heheh he apprently attracts gay people.. he has something in common with GG.. heheh.. I guess they should have labels above their heads with neon light indicating that their completely straight men.. heheh and for my GG he should have Straght and Unavailable written on it.. after dinner we chit chatted for a while and then we decided to chill at Marilyn's.. I went there only for awhile because my siblings are alone at home.. so I went back early.. Plus my scarf inside my tudong kept slipping and it made me very KUSUT.. so yeah when I drove back home hancur my tudong.. hehe

I went to KAIZEN SUSHI for lunch with my darling Syazzieh, NANA, my Lating Cuzen FAtin And NAi.. the place was very attractive and cool.. but the food is expensive the Shake Sushi was very delicious but the other dishes weren't as good as EXCAPADE.. so overall i still prefer EXCAPADE..

According to my office mates thursday night or as we malays would say " malam Jumat " is supposedly their special night.. hehehe where married couples you know.. no need to explain any further. So any ways.. I didn't know anything about this until I started working with married people.. when you see their glowing faces on Friday morning you know what happened the night before.. It's really disturbing when they constantly talk about it.. Well unfortunately, this happens when you are in the circle of golongan OTT as  Syaz would call it.. Lame oh Na. hahaha

Anyways I think I'd better hit the sheets... It's very late.. and I had a long day at work. until next time..

To my GG:

 GOOD LUCK TOMORROW..<33

 I love you so much <33>

I just found out that my blog is boring.. According this so called QWERTY person and his/her roommates its pointless and very long.. SO WHHHATTTT~!!! go stalk somebody else's blog..

If it is long why did you even bother reading it? If you really want to comment my boring blog, at least have the decency to use proper english i mean " my roommate and i bored reading this blog." come on.. your freaking english sucks, never mind my blog.. 

I actually don't know what to blog about right now.. my mind is completely blank.. All I have in my head right now is wanting to be with my huggable and lovable boyfriend.. I miss you love... My sayang ane.. orangnya pemalu.. heheh his reason for not tagging my blog.. I find it adorable.. hehe sayang you're cute.. all he does is read my blog and steals my pictures from it without me knowing..ehehe he's my photo thief.. does that when I'm sitting right next to him... anyways, i think i'll stop here.... kan sleep... tunggu sudah my sayang.. kan say our good nights... hehe 

Im in love with you sexy eyes.. XoXo

Updating in progress...

So, the freaky dude is finally going back to KL.. and Thank God no more freakiness from now on... I had a heavy breakfast today..shared my kueh tiaw with aunty siti and she shared her roti kosong with me..hehehe it sound better this way..this way it doesn't sound like I ordered two dishes for breakfast.. After breakfast I continued updating the inventory of tools and I went to Jabatan Buruh with Ka Lyna.. I skipped lunch but I went home to pray.. then went back to work.. I arrived work and I surfed the net to go phone hunting.. I want a new phone.. and right now Im so in love with PDA phones.. Since I text a lot I guess it's much safer to use keypads with full alphabetical keys.. so i dun have to press them once or twice or three times or more.. so anyways while I was searching I came across HTC diamond.. I was so intrigued by it.. but the thing is.. it doesn't have a memory card slot.. it only has an internal memory of 4GB.. so anyone who's anyone and who knows a thing or two about this kind of stuff.. what is more advisable? a phone with a good memory and comes with a memory card slot or one with a good memory and without a memory card slot.... Im also wondering when the new Sony Ericsson Xperia will be coming out in Brunei.. That phone is really beautiful and the functions are really good.. I still haven't decided yet.. I know I have the LG KF 750 on my wants list but I should take it down now.. hehe that phone doesn't have a wi-fi so yeah... I don't think that'll be in my might soon to be phone.. heheh So yeah I know I shouldn't menyelam sambil minum air at work but yeahh.. I didn't have anything to do.. owh aftersurfing I went to Sutera Biru to send the time sheets for Nazri to sign and I went to BSP to get Renato's PSL...I didn't turun though.. Ka Lyna saja yang ambil so I just decided to stay in the van and stare into the windows of the offices.. and look at my reflection not knowing that there were people who were actually looking at me.. hahha and one of the people who were looking was rupanya si Khiari... haha adakah. he actually came out and went to see me.. heheh I also met Syaz and Nady if Im not mistaken.. hehe from BSP we went to KB to buy office refreshments.. we were running out because us girls in the office eat a lot.. so yeah... Went back to the office after that.. answered the phone a few times.. smiled at John and asked if I had anything else to do at Syed.. and around 5 ish I went home.. Bila balik no one there..so I decided to watch my only source of entertainment these days.. GREY'S ANATOMY..  heheh I am hooked.. seriously.. I can't stop watching it.. right now it's on pause because I want to blog.. but as soon as I stop blogging I'll start watching again.. and they only time I stop watching is when I go to sleep.. I'm actually waitng for GG to text.. I know he's studying but I just want to know if he's ok or not.. you know me I worry a lot.. I miss you love.. I can't wait till Fatin finishes her exams.. hehe which means we get to hang out.. and I need to find free time during my week days.. maybe after work or maybe during the week ends.. hehe I miss hanging out with my friends.. I miss my friends...

I wish it was the end of June.. So I can see my Sayang again.. I miss you so much love.. I love you.. XOXOXO

As I promised, hehe 

Well..the stalker cant be called a stalker because he doesn't actually stalk..all he does is just freaks me out a little.. How he freks me out? well, every time i walk into the project office and he's there. he says "ehem"  every time I pass by..just to see if I look at him and smile.. he also loves to use the toilet next to the management office when actually there's a toilet right next to the project office.. and when I make phone calls for his hotel enquiries he won't stop looking at me..  it freaks me out a little.. so I really don't know whether he's actually a stalker... you decide.. owh he treated me and ka lyna lunch twice and he wants to take me out for dinner.. 

I bought a pair of wedges at Charles and Keith td ptg.. I was in the mood for new shoes and so I bought them.. Been eying them since last month.. I treated mum and dad lunch at excapade.. hehe byk mama order hehe "appreciating that kaka lanja" she said.. hehe I was so full that we had to tapau some of the salmon sashimi and the california maki..

anyways i gotta ciao now... kan aga tahlil nenek wa'.. 

love, I miss you and I love you so banyak2..

hey y'all i know its been forever since i updated this blog. so here's to my blog stalker out there..u demanded for one..so im giving it to you.heheh..well my life is mostly about work these days. I miss my long boring holidays..im so used to waking up early for work i even wake up early on my days off. sighs.. hehe anywys, my parents went to KL last week and left us three siblings home alone...its not cool when you're home alone..its quiet and lifeless..we had a BBQ party to go the next day esah's, syasya's and irah's bday party. so yaya knowing it was gonna be a lonely night decided to sleep over at my uda's, nasib fatin ada.. she slept over at my place..lama sudah havent hang out wth her..since she's so busy with her exams...m wishing her all the best...i know you 're gonna do great lenks.. 

I had a great time at the party brought GG along..hehe it was fun.. sayangnya i cudnt play the bouncer..heh..maybe next time...panuh rumah uda...most of the cuzens were missing tho..ka nana you shud have been there...lama sudah kami one family nda get together like that..i miss those days...

i spent the afternoon with my sayang the next day...which will be the last time til he finishes his exams.. im gonna miss him so much.. =( owh well u know what they say..absence makes the heart grow fonder..and it surely does... I had a great time with you love.. heheh good luck with ur exams do great  know u can ;) 

its late i should sleep got work tomorrow urgh..till then m out..loves

i love you azizi sallehan