Do you ever get the feeling of not fitting in.. Like when you're in a crowd of friends and you feel you're the misfit, the freak, the ugly duckling or that you're not smart enough to hang out with them... what's worse they show signs that you don't belong.. it sucks even more when they rub it in your face that you're not one of them... It reminds you that people do look down on you.. and you can't trust everyone..

In my case, people say I'm too naive and i tend to trust people easily..

You don't know whether friends you trust are talking about you behind your back.. Or the people you've known for a very long time, aren't what they truly are.. In the end the only people you can actually trust is your family.. those are the people you can come to for help.. the people you can rely on.. the ones who will always be there for you no matter the situation..

I told my mum that I'm too embarrassed to go to a certain occasion tonight because I know I'll be the odd one out.. the feeling of not an equal is going to arise and it's gonna make a hole of regret in my heart that I can't fix because I didn't do the best that I could to be where they are right now.. She told me that when this happens I'll realise that all I can do is to show them that I am capable, capable of doing better.. and mothers are always right.. Dreams don't come true because it's not written in your destiny.. we just haven't tried hard enough to make them come true..

So right now, before the feeling of regret comes.. I will work harder for these next few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, days and years of my life.. to achieve my goals.. to finally feel that I'm actually climbing the ladder of success.. and prove to myself that I am better.. I want to feel that I've succeeded.. I'm motivated and nothing can bring me down.. CHAYO CHAYO!