Spreading love with a single heart beat;

2010-04-18T17:36:00.002+08:00

I would give the world to be in the same room with you again. We don't need to talk. Looking into your eyes and not the laptop screen would make me the happiest girl ever. It kills me that we're so far apart from each other. I miss you. I love you. I can't wait for you to come back home to me. ♥

2009-10-30T23:45:00.002+08:00

I deactivated my facebook account..personal reasons.. all of a sudden i felt like the whole world is watching.. even now every word i type goes public..but its not wrong to express what i feel inside right?

So anyways, Nurul Syazwina Rosli Happy Smahing Birthday to you.. hehehe i know and im sorry for not wishing you last year.. and yes i do deserve for not getting wished by you in return.. i promise you it will not happen anymore.. you know i love you..

To my beloved boyfriend, I love you very much

2009-08-20T01:15:00.002+08:00

:'( this is all i'm ever doing nowadays when im all alone and i have nothing else to think about.. it'll be september soon..and it just hit me that it's really happening.. Im strong and I know I'll get through it..

I love you

2009-06-03T14:16:00.002+08:00

Yay! 8 days to go..

I just finished watching the season finale of Grey's Anatomy as expected I ended up in tears.. hehe today i have nothing planned.. so right now at this moment i am thinking of something to do to fill up my day.. but apparently blogging is the only thing could think of.. so anyways, i spring cleaned my roonm. FINALLY.. if it weren't for the mood that i had i would have never gotten it done.. i also rearranged my furniture so that my bed wouldn't be facing the door.. unfortunately by the end of the day, my left arm felt really painful.. Thank God it's fine now.. i kept on shaking it last night because of the pain..

owh I know what to do now heheh, I feel like watching Fullhouse on http://www.mysoju.com

byes X)

2009-05-29T14:00:00.002+08:00

It's only been 2 weeks already.. and i feel like my head is about to explode..

seriously, i think my parents don't want to see me home anymore.. when I'm just about to feel comfortable that's when it get's on their nerves..

i hate my holidays

2009-05-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

big bang kaboommm X) *random*

so here's what's up.. my semester break has been so-so for the last week.. not much has been done except streaming boys before flowers, swimming and jogging..

15 days to go till jiji comes back ='( lama lagi.. thats half a month.. owh well..

owh my hard disk is sick =( so all my series that were stored there im guessing are all gone by now.. daddy sent it to the shop on saturday.. so hopes for updating my tv series have disappeared..

all in all my semester break isn't what expected it to be.. hoping it would be cheery soon..

i miss hostel hanging out nights.. its so lonely and sunyi at home and absolutely nothing to do..

and.. i really miss you sayang.. ='(

2009-03-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

heheheh there it is... my baby~~ hehehe

2009-03-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

I am in love with Azizi Sallehan...

Spent the day with Jiji today.. we went to ogdc to send Yaya and K-ron for their book sale.. then me and Jiji went to seria town for breakfast and dvd shopping... for the rest of the day we stayed home and watched 2 movies and 2 episodes of one tree hill... the second movie we watched was hand picked from my dvd collection by me.. and it was Love Phobia.. a korean movie.. well, no surprise there i cried lah.. haha =p

I miss you already sayang... I love you <3

"ever thine, ever mine, ever ours.."

2009-02-28T20:48:00.002+08:00

as promised....

My day started not as chirpy as i hoped.. i woke up earlier than expected.. breakfast wasn't breakfast at all.. i didn't have the appetite to eat.. my food nda bekacau langsung... my ice lemon tea wasn't even half drunk.. so anyways after breakdfast i went to the post office to renew my drivers liscense, made it into a 3 years liscense so i dont have to go there every year...

i went up to bndr soon after that with Jiji.. hehe our first car ride to bndr with me as the driver.. its usually the other way round.. siok jualah... = ) thanks for accompanying me love.. <3

m home now.. and have absolutely nothing to do... jiji is fast asleep.. heheh as usual.. and im bored..

_HAPY BIRTHDAY KHIARI~!_

2009-02-27T17:41:00.003+08:00

awu wah~~~~~

i update nee...

Okay.. for startersss.... I HAVE A NEW CAR HEHEHE

next... im allowed to drive up to bndr now~!!! weeheheheheh

and.... mid-semester break is coming up I cannot wait..

here's a lil something-something for my sayang.. i made sandmen with my friends at tungku beach on wednesday.. and i decided to make jiji and me...

heheheh cute kan... i miss you sayang.

anyways, i just got back from bndr... and m exhausted.. i'll update again promise ;)

m out -mwuh-

2009-01-05T22:44:00.001+08:00

im a bad friend ='(

2009-01-02T11:16:00.003+08:00

I wasn't looking for this
What is this
I don't know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself
On my own
Tell me how to stop this feeling

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find
That what's begun, this love and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

I can't imagine right now
Standing here, without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt, what I knew
I could never, stop this feeling

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
But then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find that what's begun this love and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

Thank you for not letting go
When I said
Let me go
Thank you for timing, thank you for finding
Thank you for not believing me baby when I said

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
But then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find that what's begun this love, and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

I wasn't looking for this, and now I'm done, I'm done.

I love this song.. i can't stop listening to it and singing along with it.. =) It's by PCD and the title is I'm Done..

I'm done.. <3>

in to deep

2008-12-31T21:51:00.002+08:00

i miss early stages of relationships.. you know when the love flame is new and strong and nothing else exist except you and him.. the feeling you get when he walks into a room..butterflies in your stomach.. the long hour phone calls.. never ending texts.. the nervousness you get when he's right next to you... i miss all of it.. hehehe i"m not saying that it doesn't happen anymore i'm just saying that miss it..

Well even though i'm saying those things, my love for him is still growing...and i still get those butterflies.. and i cherish every moment.. =) he still makes my heart skip a beat..

HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD

cupcakes for him

2008-12-22T21:47:00.005+08:00

pictures say a thousand words..so incase you don't get it.. i made cupcakes for sayang today. =) with the help of paten and aez.. =)

I LOVE YOU pretty boy

2008-12-22T12:19:00.003+08:00

so anyways i did visit my dad's ladang..and here's some pictures i took

the last one shows my baby lamb...its so cute and adorable.. =))) suka nyusu...

you're my halo

2008-12-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

my dearest NAQEE... i'm here for you when ever you need me.. well at least i'll try my best to be..

I went to the beach tdi with sayang.. it was so windy..but i had fun =) unfortunately my hippie..has no credit so we can't really talk much tonight... I miss you already love..♥

My bestie is sleeping over tonight..we're currently watching Untreacable.. and tomorrow kami terpaksa bangun awal..heheh we're going to the ladang.. wohoo~ heheh excited much.. well not really..

Owh you know the sore throat i was having a few days back..well now it's turned into a flu..i constantly have nose blocks and sneeze.. caught it from sayang..hehe

Fatin told me the hype about their results..when it came out people were screaming and crying.. when she told me the story it felt like it was from a movie.. heh..talking about results..when oh when will ubd's come out.. its freakin' me out..

I can't get this song out of my head...it's halo by beyonce knowles..

here's some of the lyrics:

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

dedicated to my sayang~

2008-12-19T00:31:00.003+08:00

nah the video =)

2008-12-18T13:01:00.004+08:00

Last night was the LAST night for my cousins' to sleepover..they've been staying here for almost a month sudah since their parents performed haj..who'll be back later this evening..we spent the night watching dvds in yaya's room.. and took pictures..well the one's yang mau bgambar sjalah.. in other words..the vain people..
Sayang took me out to watch TWILIGHT yesterday..hehehe it was fun.. the movies was good~ but as sayang said they make the vamps in the book act like animals.. heheh...and masa kami liat the movie..there was a group of people that kept on uu-ing when Edward Cullen appeared on the screen.."bimbos"..and we laughed when we saw Jacob Black hehehe cali wah... all and all it was fun..thanks love <3 owh tjumpa my dear PATEN heheh she startled me appearing out of no where in front of me.. seriously nda nampak wah batang hidungnya..tiba2 muncul in front of me..

sayang and me talked on the phone this morning..heehe lama sudah nda ceta2 on the phone with him..macam2 topic lah timbul.. and he declares himself a hippie..heheh peace and love but not greenery..

i friggin' love my HIPPIE HUNKY MACHO boyfriend..

+Goodluck to those itb-ians who are recieving their exams results today+

-out-

2008-12-16T10:33:00.003+08:00

good morning world~

I am 19 years 2 months old today.. hehe it's shame that we don't celebrate our monthly birthdays..becuase if we did there's always something to look forward to every month..unfortunately..if we did celebrate monthly birthdays our pockets will end up empty..hehe..

It 10.37 am..and im still in bed under the sheets... my throat is sore and its hard to swallow.. last night i was watching Pushing Daisies and there was this dialogue that fell in love with "you're my king sized duvet of goodness" well at least that's what i remember of it.. well the reason why i love the saying is because the king sized duvet im refering to is one and only GG <3 he's my king sized duvet of goodness... i miss you love

Last Sunday we entered the Walk-a-Hunt competition..it was very tiring, both mentally and physically tiring...the riddles they gave were mind bobbling..you have to read between the lines as they would say..however, it was fun..

I want to watch TWILIGHT~ =(( fiqah mau liat..owh well..tunggu the dvd saja la.. and watch with sayang..=) i havent finished reading new moon yet..hehe which im suppose to finish by now..i have 2 new books to read that daddy bought me from aussieh... so yeah.. banyak buku i nak baca sebenarnye...

Exam results..its dreadfull waiting for them.. me no likey...im hoping for the better..but there's nothing i could do to change it so i'll just have to wait and see and pray...

syafiqah idris signing off~

2008-12-12T12:44:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by FAtin<3
RULES :

1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag 6 people.

1. Are you male or female?
Strip Tease by Danity Kane
( Why don't you come and see..hehehe kidding =p)

2. Describe yourself!
Still in Love with my EX by Kelly Rowland
(hahaha so not true!)

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Run it by Chris Brown
(they run it with me!)

4. Describe your current relationship.
Cannonball by Damien Rice
(heheh its actually going great..but i do love this song )

5. Where would you like to be now?
A Carpel Tunnel of Love by Fall Out Boy
(uuuu....:D)

6. How do you feel about love?
Miles Away by Madonna
(hehehe i think it can go miles away.. ?? )

7. What's your life like?
Do without my love by nathan
( people wouldn't know what to do without my love ;D )

8. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Migrate by Mariah Carey
(Migrate to where ever you are...=p )

9. Say something wise:
Song 4 mutya by mutya buena
(uhhh...okay~)

10. If someone says "is this okay?"
Skeleton Song by Kate Nash
(haha ur digging your own grave!?)

11. How would you describe yourself?
Sing for Absolution by Muse
(i love to sing..)

12.What do you like in a guy/girl?
Don't forget to remember me by Carrie Underwood
(to always remember me for who i am..)

13.How do you feel today?
Get Down Like that by Ne-Yo
(im feeling like i wanna get down like that..)

14.What is your life's purpose?
Mamma mia by Meryl Streep
(hmm...)

15.What is your motto?
Hands held High by Linkin Park
(to always remember greatness of God~)

16.What do yoour friends think of you?
Bisik Hati by Maria n Destine
(uhm.. i have no idea~)

17.What do you think of your parents?
Never took the time by Akon
(i love them.. this song is soo off)

18. What do you think about very often?
If i Talk to God by the last goodnight
(I wish he knew m thankful for everything he's given..)

19. What is 2 + 2?
Because you loved me by Celine Dion
(its actually four but okay~)

20. What do you think of your best friend?
Won't Stop by OneRepublic
(won't ever stop being my best friend! you know i love you babe)

21. What do you think of the person you like?
Cellphone's Dead by Beck
(ive never heard this song)

22. What is your life story?
If the rain must fall by james morrison
(letting it flow as it should be..)

23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Nobody by Wonder girls
(just me haha no one else)

24. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
HAte 2 love you by Amerie
(MANA ADA.. I LOVE LOVING YOU~)

25. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Loving you was easy by amerie
(loving you IS EASY)

26. What will they play at your funeral?
Smell the roses By Natasha Bedingfield
(hmm...)

27. What is your hobby/interest?
Switch by will Smith
( no comment )

28. What is your biggest fear?
Stop this world by Ne-yo
(heh you got that right..scared that it might stop without fullfilling my dreams)

29. What is your biggest secret?
Whenever you remember by Carrie Underwood
(i dunno)

30. What do you think of your friends?
So Small by Carrie Underwood
(they have given me so much and eveything else seems so small <3)

31. What will you post this as?
That girl by Frankie j

I tag anyone who reads this! hahaha ;)

2008-12-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

i was feeling a bit corny last night so mind my corniness.. these are my favourite television and movie couples...

"i wish i were a mermaid, and friends with all the fish, a shiny tail and seashells, that's what i would wish" OC - Seth remembered the exact same words to Summer's poem from sixth grade..led to the most memorable kiss in OC history.. hehe one of the best couples in prime time television..

"always and forever" - naley..they are the reason why i keep watching one tree hill..

"I want all of you forever, you and me, everyday" - Noah and Allie from The Notebook..all time favourite romantic movie..

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and to be loved in return" - Moulin Rouge

"Our love is like the wind..I can't see it i sure can feel it" - A walk to remember

"If it not for today, if not for you i would never have known love at all.." - If only

I think im done here..i know there are more... but these are mostly my faves...

I love you sayang~ hehe mwuh<3

my new haircut

2008-12-07T23:22:00.004+08:00

this was how my hair looked like before raya...

this was how my hair looked during raya...

and this is how my hair looks like NOW~

i have finally dared myself to chop my long locks off...and it feels amazingly good.. its light!!! hehehe and i get to use less shampoo..and it will be easier to wash.. hehehe

M LOVIN MY NEW HAIR<3

"YOU'RE A FUN GIRL NOW"

19th

2008-12-05T01:39:00.001+08:00

Happy 19th Monthsary love!!!

I love you so much

HOSTEL UBD SUNYI

2008-12-05T00:59:00.008+08:00

HEY BLOGGERS!

im back! finally blogging again...for the past few months i haven't been able to blog at all because some how i have no idea what to blog about..and now tadaaa!!!

I'm apparently still at hostel because my exams aren't over yet. i have one more paper left which EN1202.. hopefully im able to do better than my CO.. which i confidently now that i would fail and would repeat the course in my sem3..haih..my exams so far have been stressful due to the fact that they are far apart and eventually makes me become a lazy bum to study..

I'm currently in enoy's room.. wasting time.. we have absolutely nothing to do.. it's damn quiet here..there are only 4 people left staying on the top floor.. scary much.. we decided to eat instant noodles for dinner tdi. heheh no one was here with a car to take us to Amsarra.. we watched Game Plan a few hours ago.. once the movie was over had no idea what to do.. So i went online and webby sama naqiah~ heheh i miss her already..

owh owh.. our PH 1104 assessment results are out and well my results were ok i gues? heheh i dunno exactly dr.lai graded the paper.. wen LCK told me my grades i tried to remember each question..

The anticipated movie for me currently is TWILIGHT~ i can't wait for it to premiere in Brunei.. however im kind of disappointed on Edward Cullens character..i expected it to be someone else.. even so i bet it gona be one hell of a great movie.. huhu

Holidays will be coming soon..which means i get to go home and see my family again~ i get to sleep in my room and in my own bed. with air cond!!! and and full access to a CLEAN kitchen and my own bathroom.. And!! the amazing television set and astro all to myself nyeh nyehh..

Downside of the hols is i'll be missing my hostel mates.. hanging out in bndr.. and sleeping over at nana's apartment..

Pix from UBD moments:

hehehe kiss from my babe nanad!!!

our party with the two drunken mashimaro

purple and pink day for b.eng and chem.eng

in mimi's room

PH lecture tehee

our winning batman structure

S.A.F.I.N

i promise there'll be more okeh...

toodles<3>

2008-09-29T16:56:00.002+08:00

MID SEMESTER BREAK PEOPLE!

2008-09-13T22:27:00.006+08:00

my last sushi date with my girl sexysyazzie before she flies off to UK.

to syazzieh<3

I'll be missing you babe..we've gone a long way huh.. i can't believe we're all grown up now.. Uni life is gonna be great at least that's what i hear.. but seriously, you're gonna have great memorable memories to add on to the ones you made back home with us.. no matter what happens, we'll all still be friends.. keep in touch always k..keep us updated with ur fb,blogging, emails and msn.. we'll be waiting for your booty to come back home aite... i promise to be there to send you off.. and i guess i'll be singing the bass part of the whole mariah song.heheh biar tia durg nyanyi utk ko.. hehehe

oh..we still have yet to conduct a slumber party at empire.. something to look forward to when you come back ok?

from yours truly, syaffieh ;)

updating pictures

2008-09-01T21:57:00.014+08:00

i know its been a while since i blogged but here i am..so

here are pix from ubd orientation, hostel orientation,orientation sports day, empire seminar, what happen's in hostel without orientation, ka mona's reception and what I did in PH1104

me and pipah

nanad n nana

the name tags

me, barney and maya

nanad being eaten by barney..grr

me being loved by barney <3

adid, barney and me

nanad, orientation king, stitch and me

our barney logo.. 1st place people

me and my kaka angkat for orientation kaka nuri

ana and me

hehehe

my intruder alarm hehe i loike it

m so proud of myself

2008-07-20T13:54:00.003+08:00

I was trying out my new webby with my darlz fatin.. and look who came to join in the party.. adorable kan durang ahh.. eyy kan di gigit tu pipi my nephews ah..
Some of the action nda sampat dgambar, like the part when durang Aqil made my nose into Miss Piggy.. hehe jahat bah durang ah..

I was suppose to go to Limbang today ut I slept really late.. like around 3 late.. hahah liat movie.. batah sudah nda tidur late so yeah.. layan sja tia.

I planned to wake up late today but as usual it is impossible for me to actually have shut eye until late afternoon so I ended waking up around 9 ish and stayed in bed until 11..heheh lazy bumbum..

My sayang is having a footsal tourney in UBD.. good luck hun..

A quote from my dearest GP teacher, If you fail to plan, you plan to fail..

2008-07-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggers, I finally bought my dream laptop. Lookie lookie here.. heheh it's a Sony Vaio VGN-CR353.. heheh pure white yoh. hehe

So anyways, I went to UBD today to get my offer letter and all.. only seven people will be taking B.Sc in Applied Physics.. and only two of the total are girls which include me. SO YEAH.. hehe how cool is that.. I know I thought it was the end of the world and all seeing that I didn't get the Electrical engineering course but I learnt that Applied Physics is a wide field and so yeah.. I'm keeping it all positive from now on.. Thanks to my family and friends who have my back always.. they supported me the whole time through and I appreciate every bit of it..

I also got my hands one the sequel of Twilight by Stephenie Meyer.. New Moon.. hehe can't wait to start reading it.. as soon as I finish Thanks For The Memories by Cecilia Ahern.. hehe

Orientation is two weeks people.. I don't know whether I'm ready for Uni.. hehe my nerves were racking for the name list.. now they're racking waiting for Uni to start.. yikes.. I wonder how Uni life would be like.. a lot say that i'll be the best years of our lives.. hehhee so yeah.. i can't wait.. =))

2008-07-07T21:28:00.004+08:00

Monday!

The beginning of the week.. i got the monday blues.. on top of that, I cannot stop thinking about the UBD offer list.. my oh my.. when will it be out, I have no friggin' idea.. but I do wish it'll be out soon.. waiting for it is so nerve racking, it's like this never ending drum role.. and it tends to get annoying and you can't be bothered to wait for it anymore... I don't want to be not bothered.. I still bother.. i still care, so I'm still hoping that my prayers are answered and my wishes and dreams come true.. because this particular wish has to come true.

Dear God, please make my dream come true.. I want this so bad.. it's my future that we're talking about here.. if this doesn't work out I don't know where else to go.. I need this... You are my only hope.. I turn to you.. UBD is my future.. Amin.....

I love listening to DJ Ezan.. you know the Pilihan FM DJ.. Im this passive listener.. I want to call up the station and join in on the discussions but I don't have the guts yet.. hehe her topics are really interesting and i love it when she laughs hehe she has this really bubbly laugh and you can never get bored with her sessions.. I'm so passive, I memorise the station's number but I never dare to call.. haha I also like this chinese song that she plays every time she's on air.. I have no idea who sings it tho.. lang lai le, lang lai le~.. haha i think that's how its spelt..

owh my boyfriend thinks the only reason I have interest in watching football is because I like looking for hot football players.. haha no sayang, I do actually watch the match for the purpose of the game.. not the players.. besides you're the only football player I have in heart.. and I know that you're hot.. so there's no need to go hot footballer hunting.. I have you X) and you're the only guy i should stalk.. haha

I love you hot stuff *winks*

2008-07-04T14:06:00.002+08:00

Hello... =))

Today is friday YAY!! which means tomorrow no WORK >.<

Yesterday I went swimming with GG and Aez.. hehe all we did was swim around.. No laps.. and we were so tired.. we are lacking of stamina... and Aez tcramp kakinya hahah abis racing just one lap with me.. huhu.. I had fun.. swimming with my lovable boyfriend for the first time.. nanti lagi ah sayang.. hehe =))

tomorrow is my baby sister's 13th birthday.. SHE'S ALL GROWN UP NOW.. unfortunately ya demam panas since yesterday... kesian ya.. so im all manja2 with her td.. get well soon baby sis..

ok since im at work back to work FIQAHH!! according to Paten im stealing bones X))

I love my boyfriend

2008-06-30T13:00:00.002+08:00

Hey people.. I know I haven't been blogging in a while.. Been caught up with some stuffs.. so yeah.. hehe no time to type.. except while at work..

I had a tiring weekend at my aunt's wedding.. Aunty Mani finally got married.. and her hubby is the RTB dude who reads the sports news.. heheh KIYUT lakinya.. hehe macam kanak2..

so anyways, masa malam bebedak.. there were two games going on.. one was the Lotto.. it's like this Bingo game where the numbers are being called out and you have to cross out the ones that you have on your ticket.. and the other one was a Guitar Hero tournament..

Knowing that I suck horridly at Guitar hero I decided to play Lotto.. but I just couldn't take my eyes off the TV screen where my cousins were playing.. soon after I played like 3 tickets of Lotto and had no luck what so ever, I went to join my cousins and tried one game.. OMG I SUCK!! hahaha but was ok.. I had fun laughing about it.. hehehe

At my grannies d Anggerek, angah's sandal's were worn by my nene.. heheh so she was busy looking for my grannies sandals to were out.. when her 6 year old son asked what happened, all he could say was," nene mu atu..." heehheh cute ah.. macam orang tua sja anak ah..

to my dear fatin: yes, m fine.. m here. hehe sorry for being so quiet for the past few days.. hehe i miss you babe... =)

to my sexy eyes boyfriend: I love you in every way

2008-06-24T19:22:00.002+08:00

for today's blog..

I've been spending my time at home resting for the past two days.. just to get my rest... tomorrow I have to start working again.. my darlings pipah and paten visited me this afternoon.. hehe had a girl talk.. lama sudah inda hang out with them.. my sayang came a few hours after.. nyaman his sleep.. heheh he's soo adorable..

waiting for the results from UBD is so nerve racking.. I really want this..

2008-06-24T19:19:00.001+08:00

this was suppose to be my entry for sunday:

Im gonna be losing a whole lot people I love and care about in the fall.

Okay correction. Brunei doesn't have fall.. During the months of September and October to be exact..

My friends are gonna be leaving for Uni soon.. and Im gonna be very lonely..

I told my sayang not to tell me anything about his confirmation to go abroad this year..

Not until it's really confirmed.. Losing friends means I need to make new friends.. New friends means Im gonna have trust issues..

To syaz my last blog has nothing to do with you okay.. so don't hate me.

My last blog was just this feeling I had.. Insecurities.. You are my friend and I trust you okay.. so don't be mad at me..

I've been sick for the past 24 hours.. everything I consume seems to find its way to come back out.. where it came in..

My head spent most of it's time in a toilet bowl.. and my head has been spinning all day yesterday and it still is today.. Im too scared to eat anything.

I might throw up again..

To wafi and izzat: Happy Birthday Dude!!! =) have a great 20th

2008-06-17T13:09:00.002+08:00

Do you ever get the feeling of not fitting in.. Like when you're in a crowd of friends and you feel you're the misfit, the freak, the ugly duckling or that you're not smart enough to hang out with them... what's worse they show signs that you don't belong.. it sucks even more when they rub it in your face that you're not one of them... It reminds you that people do look down on you.. and you can't trust everyone..

In my case, people say I'm too naive and i tend to trust people easily..

You don't know whether friends you trust are talking about you behind your back.. Or the people you've known for a very long time, aren't what they truly are.. In the end the only people you can actually trust is your family.. those are the people you can come to for help.. the people you can rely on.. the ones who will always be there for you no matter the situation..

I told my mum that I'm too embarrassed to go to a certain occasion tonight because I know I'll be the odd one out.. the feeling of not an equal is going to arise and it's gonna make a hole of regret in my heart that I can't fix because I didn't do the best that I could to be where they are right now.. She told me that when this happens I'll realise that all I can do is to show them that I am capable, capable of doing better.. and mothers are always right.. Dreams don't come true because it's not written in your destiny.. we just haven't tried hard enough to make them come true..

So right now, before the feeling of regret comes.. I will work harder for these next few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, days and years of my life.. to achieve my goals.. to finally feel that I'm actually climbing the ladder of success.. and prove to myself that I am better.. I want to feel that I've succeeded.. I'm motivated and nothing can bring me down.. CHAYO CHAYO!

2008-06-14T23:21:00.004+08:00

The Notebook: A romantic sad love story about two people from different backgrounds falling in love with each other. They faced many obstacles but in the end they married, had a beautiful family, grew old together and lived a wonderful life. They died in each others arms in the end..

Its a must see movie for a hopeless romantic.. I know it's a movie from 2004 but I have seen it several times it still makes me tear.. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic..

I miss my GG.. He makes my heart skip a beat.. and I love the way my tummy feels when he looks at me.. I miss the feeling.. I wish you're here love.. I miss you too much... I love you <33

2008-06-14T11:00:00.003+08:00

I keep you with me in my heart

Good morning Brunei *waves*, first things first.. my new url represents my Cupido Doo Doll.. he's a hopeless romantic, who spreads love around the world with a single beat of his big red heart..

Since I slept late last night I decided 10AM was a good time to wake up.. hehe turns out it's boring to wake up late.. i have no plans for the day.. except to go yoga-ing this evening.. I haven't eaten breakfast yet because I have no one to eat with.. So now I'm just waiting to have lunch.. Mama went to the bank and decided to go out alone since I was asleep when she checked on me twice.. when she already woke me up the first time.. I feel kind of guilty letting her go out alone..

I want to watch Definitely , Maybe later this afternoon.. Aez bought the DVD a few days ago but I havn't had the time to watch.. I'll make time for that..

My lovable GG:

I'm lucky I'm in love you.. You make it easier when things get harder.. I love you in every way..

2008-06-14T00:20:00.005+08:00

Untraceable: great movie to watch... keeps your nerves racking and makes your stomach twist and turn.. The suspense makes you sit at the edge of your seat..

This is the first time in a long time I've decided to sleep late.. So I feel like blogging

I had dinner with Nana, Wafi and Fitri at Lemon Grass.. The food was good.. Wafi had the urge to tease the she male waiter or should I say waitress.. heheh he apprently attracts gay people.. he has something in common with GG.. heheh.. I guess they should have labels above their heads with neon light indicating that their completely straight men.. heheh and for my GG he should have Straght and Unavailable written on it.. after dinner we chit chatted for a while and then we decided to chill at Marilyn's.. I went there only for awhile because my siblings are alone at home.. so I went back early.. Plus my scarf inside my tudong kept slipping and it made me very KUSUT.. so yeah when I drove back home hancur my tudong.. hehe

I went to KAIZEN SUSHI for lunch with my darling Syazzieh, NANA, my Lating Cuzen FAtin And NAi.. the place was very attractive and cool.. but the food is expensive the Shake Sushi was very delicious but the other dishes weren't as good as EXCAPADE.. so overall i still prefer EXCAPADE..

According to my office mates thursday night or as we malays would say " malam Jumat " is supposedly their special night.. hehehe where married couples you know.. no need to explain any further. So any ways.. I didn't know anything about this until I started working with married people.. when you see their glowing faces on Friday morning you know what happened the night before.. It's really disturbing when they constantly talk about it.. Well unfortunately, this happens when you are in the circle of golongan OTT as Syaz would call it.. Lame oh Na. hahaha

Anyways I think I'd better hit the sheets... It's very late.. and I had a long day at work. until next time..

To my GG:

GOOD LUCK TOMORROW..<33

I love you so much <33>

2008-06-13T18:22:00.004+08:00

I just found out that my blog is boring.. According this so called QWERTY person and his/her roommates its pointless and very long.. SO WHHHATTTT~!!! go stalk somebody else's blog..

If it is long why did you even bother reading it? If you really want to comment my boring blog, at least have the decency to use proper english i mean " my roommate and i bored reading this blog." come on.. your freaking english sucks, never mind my blog..

2008-06-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

I actually don't know what to blog about right now.. my mind is completely blank.. All I have in my head right now is wanting to be with my huggable and lovable boyfriend.. I miss you love... My sayang ane.. orangnya pemalu.. heheh his reason for not tagging my blog.. I find it adorable.. hehe sayang you're cute.. all he does is read my blog and steals my pictures from it without me knowing..ehehe he's my photo thief.. does that when I'm sitting right next to him... anyways, i think i'll stop here.... kan sleep... tunggu sudah my sayang.. kan say our good nights... hehe

Im in love with you sexy eyes.. XoXo

2008-06-10T21:31:00.002+08:00

Updating in progress...

So, the freaky dude is finally going back to KL.. and Thank God no more freakiness from now on... I had a heavy breakfast today..shared my kueh tiaw with aunty siti and she shared her roti kosong with me..hehehe it sound better this way..this way it doesn't sound like I ordered two dishes for breakfast.. After breakfast I continued updating the inventory of tools and I went to Jabatan Buruh with Ka Lyna.. I skipped lunch but I went home to pray.. then went back to work.. I arrived work and I surfed the net to go phone hunting.. I want a new phone.. and right now Im so in love with PDA phones.. Since I text a lot I guess it's much safer to use keypads with full alphabetical keys.. so i dun have to press them once or twice or three times or more.. so anyways while I was searching I came across HTC diamond.. I was so intrigued by it.. but the thing is.. it doesn't have a memory card slot.. it only has an internal memory of 4GB.. so anyone who's anyone and who knows a thing or two about this kind of stuff.. what is more advisable? a phone with a good memory and comes with a memory card slot or one with a good memory and without a memory card slot.... Im also wondering when the new Sony Ericsson Xperia will be coming out in Brunei.. That phone is really beautiful and the functions are really good.. I still haven't decided yet.. I know I have the LG KF 750 on my wants list but I should take it down now.. hehe that phone doesn't have a wi-fi so yeah... I don't think that'll be in my might soon to be phone.. heheh So yeah I know I shouldn't menyelam sambil minum air at work but yeahh.. I didn't have anything to do.. owh aftersurfing I went to Sutera Biru to send the time sheets for Nazri to sign and I went to BSP to get Renato's PSL...I didn't turun though.. Ka Lyna saja yang ambil so I just decided to stay in the van and stare into the windows of the offices.. and look at my reflection not knowing that there were people who were actually looking at me.. hahha and one of the people who were looking was rupanya si Khiari... haha adakah. he actually came out and went to see me.. heheh I also met Syaz and Nady if Im not mistaken.. hehe from BSP we went to KB to buy office refreshments.. we were running out because us girls in the office eat a lot.. so yeah... Went back to the office after that.. answered the phone a few times.. smiled at John and asked if I had anything else to do at Syed.. and around 5 ish I went home.. Bila balik no one there..so I decided to watch my only source of entertainment these days.. GREY'S ANATOMY.. heheh I am hooked.. seriously.. I can't stop watching it.. right now it's on pause because I want to blog.. but as soon as I stop blogging I'll start watching again.. and they only time I stop watching is when I go to sleep.. I'm actually waitng for GG to text.. I know he's studying but I just want to know if he's ok or not.. you know me I worry a lot.. I miss you love.. I can't wait till Fatin finishes her exams.. hehe which means we get to hang out.. and I need to find free time during my week days.. maybe after work or maybe during the week ends.. hehe I miss hanging out with my friends.. I miss my friends...

I wish it was the end of June.. So I can see my Sayang again.. I miss you so much love.. I love you.. XOXOXO

2008-06-07T18:49:00.003+08:00

As I promised, hehe

Well..the stalker cant be called a stalker because he doesn't actually stalk..all he does is just freaks me out a little.. How he freks me out? well, every time i walk into the project office and he's there. he says "ehem" every time I pass by..just to see if I look at him and smile.. he also loves to use the toilet next to the management office when actually there's a toilet right next to the project office.. and when I make phone calls for his hotel enquiries he won't stop looking at me.. it freaks me out a little.. so I really don't know whether he's actually a stalker... you decide.. owh he treated me and ka lyna lunch twice and he wants to take me out for dinner..

I bought a pair of wedges at Charles and Keith td ptg.. I was in the mood for new shoes and so I bought them.. Been eying them since last month.. I treated mum and dad lunch at excapade.. hehe byk mama order hehe "appreciating that kaka lanja" she said.. hehe I was so full that we had to tapau some of the salmon sashimi and the california maki..

anyways i gotta ciao now... kan aga tahlil nenek wa'..

love, I miss you and I love you so banyak2..

2008-06-02T22:33:00.003+08:00

hey y'all i know its been forever since i updated this blog. so here's to my blog stalker out there..u demanded for one..so im giving it to you.heheh..well my life is mostly about work these days. I miss my long boring holidays..im so used to waking up early for work i even wake up early on my days off. sighs.. hehe anywys, my parents went to KL last week and left us three siblings home alone...its not cool when you're home alone..its quiet and lifeless..we had a BBQ party to go the next day esah's, syasya's and irah's bday party. so yaya knowing it was gonna be a lonely night decided to sleep over at my uda's, nasib fatin ada.. she slept over at my place..lama sudah havent hang out wth her..since she's so busy with her exams...m wishing her all the best...i know you 're gonna do great lenks..

I had a great time at the party brought GG along..hehe it was fun.. sayangnya i cudnt play the bouncer..heh..maybe next time...panuh rumah uda...most of the cuzens were missing tho..ka nana you shud have been there...lama sudah kami one family nda get together like that..i miss those days...

i spent the afternoon with my sayang the next day...which will be the last time til he finishes his exams.. im gonna miss him so much.. =( owh well u know what they say..absence makes the heart grow fonder..and it surely does... I had a great time with you love.. heheh good luck with ur exams do great know u can ;)

its late i should sleep got work tomorrow urgh..till then m out..loves

i love you azizi sallehan

gifts

2008-05-11T20:43:00.004+08:00

Happy mama's day mama!!! You're the best and i love you so much...

Altho my nite dint go as me and GG planned last nite..I had a great time with my sayang at home...he's full of surprises..lookie wat he got me for our 1st anniversary..

You are my world, my everything love...i love you so much...

2008-05-09T19:18:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Sayang ku~

Best wishes love..have a great 20th birthday..love, ur old but i still love you..=))) ur a guy now,no longer a boy..no more play2 ahh hehehe

but ur still my baby...X)

I love you sexy <333

2008-05-06T18:30:00.002+08:00

To whom it may concern, I'm so sorry i offended you and I am very guilty to do so... and i promise it would never ever happen again..Im so sorry A. I really didn't mean it..I don't do bad things on purpose...Im so so so sorry...If i could say it a million more I would I really hope you forgive me..

Im sorry...

2008-05-05T19:56:00.005+08:00

Happy 1 year Anniversary Love <333

I love you now, forever and always... You're my other half.. You complete me..

my everything =)

i miss him deeply

2008-05-04T16:44:00.004+08:00

It's going to be my first anniversary with GG tomorrow, can you believe it's reached a year already? hehe time really does fly when you're in love. Love, you still give me butterflies in my stomach.. you still make my heart beat like crazy when you look at me.. you never fail to make me fall more in love with you than I already am.. you always try your best to be there when i need you the most.. You make me laugh when I'm down.. and you're just the most amazing boyfriend any girl could have... I'm lucky that I have you in my life.. I love you all my heart... I sound really corny at the moment, don't I? hehe

Last night I went over to GG's place with my siblings, there was a family function, baby Yayash's 1st birthday.. he is so adorable.. almost his whole family was there.. I enjoyed spending time with them.. Friendly people and very funny.. I bought this electronic book for Yash that plays nursery rhymes when u press the buttons in the middle..when Yash saw that the nose of the teddy bear on the book lit every time u press the buttons he kept on staring at the light and pressing the nose instead of the buttons.. Ishi on the other hand kept looking at the book hehe he really wanted to play with it.. GG was asked to put together this small car for yash to play with..banar2 ya btukang smpai tkapit his finger..kesian my sayang.. Ishi was so iski with the amount of presents that were on the floor for Yash that he asked his mama if he could open them.. I stayed there until around 11 ish played with the kids and spent time with GG..I made Tiramisu the night before to bring to the function..Alhamdulillah it was a big hit..hehe I saw the bowl in the kitchen it was nearly empty when I was about to leave, which reminds me Aunty Sarimah wants the recipe.. I ate alot last night 2 big helpings of rice..hehe I didn't realise I was that hungry..

I went out for breakfast with GG and Yaya this morning after sending off Aez to OGDC. We ate at DKM.. the around 3 in the afternoon tdi me and GG went out for a late lunch.. He went home a few minutes ago..I just wished he stayed longer.. =(

2008-04-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

You're the only one who knows me, love the way you hold me, I'd never find a love like this;

I spent my day with GG today...we picked up Ishi from skool...that boy is sooo kiut then we bought DVD's..then in the afternoon we watched PS I Love You together...I wouldn't say it's a great movie..i kept comparing it to the book so yeah..the book will always be better the than the movie..I still had a great time with my sayang though..hehe

Owh i got rejected by MOE for the scholarship =( i kinda expected it already..and so i had to decline my offer from Heriot-Watt...=( i guess i wont be flying off to UK anytime soon....Im really hoping i get in to either ITB or UBD...amin...i have no where else to go if i don't get in..My dad actually went to he bank to find about loaning for educational purposes..I can't let my parents pay what they cant afford especially for Uni in Uk..kesian durang..Im going to learn my lesson..heh whatever happens, happens..all i have to do now is wait...

My sayang doesnt have credit =( so my night is really sunyi now. Sayang I miss you, hope sayang makan sudah, Owh i dint get any sleep after you left i had to pick up yaya and aez then jalan lagi with mama n bapa...Im currently watching Dream Girls...and my butt is numb hehe..ngaleh duduk...

IMY;

2008-04-22T20:41:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna love you more than anyone; I'm gonna hold you closer than before; And when I kiss your soul your body be free; I'll be free for you anytime; I'm gonna love you more than anyone.

;) you know who you are..i love you sayang<3

Work;

2008-04-21T18:22:00.005+08:00

You'll always be apart of me; I'm part of you indefinitely; boy don;t you know you can't escape me; darling you'll always be my baby;

dedicated to you sayang =)

i started work todayy..came really early..like 2 hours before i was suppose to report myself to my boss Syed, that's his name..so anywys i was asked to wait for him to come and he came around 10.4o ish..hehe akhir ya datang...well it was my first day so i wanted to make a good first impression..i was sent to his office to wait for him and was given a few catalogues on the gas turbines that the company was involved with...so i read them...then when he came to the office he gave me an introduction about the company and then he asked me to move to my desk which was in the projects office..filled with M-E-N i was scared..heh kna kacau...but it was ok la..i kept my cool and pretend they weren't there..hehe..so anywys after i came back from lunch i had to read the catalogue some more..wrote some notes down and waited for my desktop to be installled at my desk..turns out my other boss, Jon dint want me to be placed at the project office..so i stayed at the administration office.. owh this is my new desktop heheh lawa...

My new desktop

lawa kann

My sayang picked me up from work tdi..hee happy i see him..took me out makan d anjung warisan...had a nice time with him...i missed alot over the weekend...i love you sayang...hope u enjoy the voucher.i know its not much but its for helping me out at bsrc the other day....

sayang, i love you <3

NGALEH;

2008-04-19T23:23:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired; i had a loong day and i wish he was here..=(

My nerves were racking before i entered the interview room..haha but it went really well..talked a lot..i was asked to introduce myself..and so i did..went on about myself until i was asked another question..why civil engineering...hehe i talked summore..i was in that room for less than 5 minutes i guess..hehe all and all i think i did ok..i hope X)

I hung out with my darlings at marilyn tdi, i found out about the prom in swiss before we went out.. told syaz, if i knew there was a prom i could have taken her out as my date haha syaz of course would have agreed and we would have taken pictures and posted it to our beloved boyfies..hehehe

Rupanya my sayang ane membaca sudah my blog..hehehe i love you sayang~

bah m outie...kan sleep..

new haircut;

2008-04-17T22:32:00.004+08:00

Im in love with the boy in the pink shirt <333

I finally decided to cut my hair today.. hehe i realised my hair had so many split ends and to top it off my hair is sooo dryyy..i need to add moisture to my hair hmmph..i should really get a good shampoo...owh while my ends were being chopped off i realised that i really miss my straight easy maintaining hair..hehehe maybe whenn i have the money and the right texture of hair i might think of getting it straightened...MIGHT...hehehe so anyways this what i look like IF i had it straightened and with my new hair cut

My sayang was surprised when he saw me tdi..heheh cali the way he looked me..it was adorable...he seems to love it straight..hehe soo i mite keep that straightening thought in mind..hehehe

I love my sayang...cant wait to spend the day with you esok love...hmm..m gonna be seeing even less of you when i start working this coming monday..MY GOD I SOUND REALLY OLD hahaha...m a friggin employed woman..hahah yay...i cant wait.. any hoos peeps..i gotta get to bed..im sleepehhh...

i love my sexy boyfriend so much..

2008-04-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'm in heaven when you kiss me, heaven when you kiss me. You were sent to me from wonderland;

I am totally in love with that song. ATC you guys rock!! haha lovey dovey lyrics are totally my thing nowadays..this happens when you are in the mood for love..pure unconditional love..i love my sayang now, forever and always..

I have a work interview tomoro.. Im nervous as ever..i know i should be sleeping early and getting myself prepared for it..but i need to friggin blog about it first..i dint earlier bcuz i watching grey's anatomy..heheh first season..got it from amni this afternoon..=)) i can't wait to watch the rest..hee =) Wish me luck my darlings~

I went deco shopping with mummy this afternoon..ngaleh and paning olehnya..cuz we had to measure the width, height, circumference of everything..then we had to choose wat colour of the material needed for the deco..i hope putting the deco together is gonna be much more fun than choosing the stuffs...

TTFN i gotta get my b-e-A-u-t-Y shleepppp,,,mwahz

2008-04-15T22:31:00.003+08:00

I miss him so much..just wish he was here..=( i miss his hugs...hmmph..sayang, i miss you..hope ur report and presentation preparation goes well..so u can come home..=)) i love u endlessly love...

i have to study for the interview this coming saturday..thank God dad dapat send me there..im kinda nervous about it..but im really hoping for UBD to call me as well..hopefully all goes well..

Ive been having these annoying headaches lately..i duno exactly why its happening but they wont budge..sasak ku..

internet;

2008-04-13T20:13:00.002+08:00

What's with the connection the past few days..mambari sasak u know..i had lots of things to blog about..now i have NOTHING..

ey wait..i do hee

hmm...lemme think for a sec..owh yea...i had a double date with my boyfie and my siblings at excapade the other night..hehe surprisingly i had a great time..my sayang got along with my sibs just fine..=)

I went swimming yesterday with my darlings..had loads of fun..the funny part was when we quickly went of the pool as soon as it started raining..we were already wet..why friggin run..adakah patut..owh..we had dinner afterwards..

I woke up so early today...and now i cant get rid of this headache that's been bothering me since this morning..despite having this headache i had fun spendingtime with my grandparents..had a dimsum breakfast at dynasty and spent the whole day with them..cute bah durg tuh..heheh suka ku mliat..i love my grandparents so much..

I am so in love with the jonas brothers current new song..when you look me in the eyes..if i had to choose a song for that special someone to serenade it to me i would pick this song *hinting* ..the lyrics are so touching..and yes i do sound corny right now but what the heck im sure that most of the girls out there would think the same thing..heheh

Darling ku paten txtd me tdi..she told me about my interview this coming saturday for B.eng civil engineering in itb..Wish me luck!! hehe and good luck to all the people yang kana interview jua..and good luck to paten for ur coming oral exams on that day too..

My boyfriend is the sweetest..he never fails to make me fall in love even more with him everyday..i love you sayang.. i have this song that reminds me of the time i bumped into a teacher while i was staring at my beloved boyfie..its clumsy by fergie..haha angau becinta wahh...crazy right..m such a clutz..

Corny;

2008-04-09T20:50:00.004+08:00

There are many forms of corniness..haha in my case i laugh at my darlings who are corny and yet i too am as corny as they are..haha yes girls, u can laugh at me too..

corny is the new black

a quote from syaz" i like corny."

hehe me too syaz...

I got to meet my sayang today..=)) happy saya..watched miss guided together. It's this new TV series that focuses on a missfit former student who eventually ends up becoming a guidance counselor in her former skool and helps her students with their problems..its funny, u guys should watch..here's a picture from one of the episodes

I gave him the sweater sudah u guys..heheh he loves it..now m jeles cuz i really loved that sweater..owh wells..i'll get a new one that looks exactly that nanti and syaz i do not wear nothing underneath that sweater ahh..hahaha

i love my boyfriend..

Finally

2008-04-09T09:25:00.001+08:00

hehe..i FINALLY got the hang of editing the layout for this effin blog..anyho's this blog is entirely for fun and for my the boredom of my current life..let's see how long this blog will actually last..to my dalenks fatin thanks for the help..haha..gatal jua tangan ne kn membuat blog..untah2 aku yang kana ketawakn oleh mu ne karang..huhu

My cupcake finally came back last night.. can't wait to see him later..*dances around* hehe

haven't seen him for nearly a month now..i duno how long i can stand if he goes to study abroad this september..*sigh* training to be strong kan fatin =p

i guess thats all for now i have to mandi..

TTFN ;)